Tuesday, July 24, 2018

Screaming inside


She is sitting in her office, concentrating on her work. She has lots of dreams, her spirits are high and she wants to conquer the world. She wants to be the best at everything she does. She wants to be applauded in front of the whole front. She wants to be appreciated. She loves being a happy and brining to smile to everyone’s faces. If she sees anyone tensed in the office, she asks with concern. If she finds it possible, she offers help with work.

The day suddenly changes for her. She feels trapped. She is unable to find an escape. Someone is banging a hammer hard on her head, another person is strangling her. She is losing her breath, palpitating. Her hands are shivering, she is sweating. She wants to scream out for help but she can’t find her voice. Her head in thumping with pain, her chest feels like a large piece of brick is placed over it. She wants to run away but she can’t move. She feels no strength in her body. She feels hopeless. She feels like a failure. She doesn’t want this but she can’t help it.

She finds the energy to get up and run to the toilet. There, in a closed space, with no one to see, and no one to hear, she cries her heart out. That’s what anxiety did to her. That’s what anxiety does to her, every time!

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